i'm back.. i haven't blogged in a while, i didn't really know what to write about. it's been 2 months since i've stepped away from social media. i quietly browse instagram w/ chris occasionally but thats about it. one thing i've realized is how disconnected i am from the world without it. on the few occasions that i open tumblr, i find out from tiktok crossposts(?) about new fashion trends, new stupid buzzwords, etc etc. and it just drills into my head further how none of the internet is real. apparently, the stanely cup craze is dead and peoples new obsession are trader joes bags.

anyways, im going back to italy with chris next month, ill be staying with his family for the summer and i'm excited, nervous, because usually when i travel its with family, but i'll be okay since everyone will take care of me. my italian is awful, and ill need him in order to get around at all but i dont mind because i love being around him. it feels weird being independent for the first time, i'm an adult, and have been for a while now, but this will be my first lick of doing something without my parents. my mom loves chris, and they get along very well, i'm really happy.

i'm not sure what else to say, im healthier, but i was having stomach issues the other day, i feel better. i ate sushi tonight, ive been eating more, somehow i havent gained much weight. i gained about 4kg but quickly lost it, my guess is that it was just food and water weight or something.